At 25, I'd like to think of myself as fairly mature and ready for the next, grown-up chapters of my life.
I've been on my own since I was basically 17 and have had at least some form of a job since I was around 13-years-old.
"Bills" was a word I became familiar with at a fairly young age. After getting my first part-time job at 15, I began regularly paying my cell phone bill and have done so ever since.
For more than 7 years I have fed, clothed and taken care of myself and continue to do so now.
I got my first full-time, 40-hour-a-week job in February and am almost four months into my first stint.
Like I said, I've always worked but this was different.
When I applied for the job, I felt this unfamiliar urgency to grow-up, lose my student status I had held most of my life, and enter the "real world"- be an adult!
But after only four months of this, one thing I've come to realize is: if this is the real world, it's pretty boring.
I mean I feel like I do the same thing day in and day out. Don't get me wrong, I need structure, a schedule and consistency in my life but is this it?
Is this what being an adult is? Waking up early, going to work, working out, eating dinner then bed? So far, it feels like a pretty boring existence.
Maybe I feel bored because in essence I'm alone here. If I had my boyfriend, Travis, maybe I wouldn't be so "bored". I do enjoy my job, so that's not it.
I just found myself thinking the other day, is this being an adult? If so, I'm going to live for vacations and crave detours from the "ordinary".
We went to a concert this past weekend and when it was over, I said aloud, "now what do I have to look forward to?"
I might be the type of person who needs so-called "drama" in their lives, but only for the adrenaline it can incite.
I'm the type of person who always needs to be doing something or have a plan of something I'm doing later.
Maybe I need to join some organizations or do some charity work.
Maybe I need to shut my mouth, suck it up and realize I'm fortunate enough to have a job, let alone a job that I really do love because I"m sure some people would beg and pray to have a so-called "boring life".
Or, maybe, just maybe, adulthood isn't all it's cracked up to be.
Am I being to cynical or do you ever get bored with the routine?