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Finding the motivation within

Friday, May 13, 2011

Why are you trying to lose weight? When asked that question, many people will say that it is because they want to be healthier, or they want to fit in to those skinny jeans again. But what is the real reason? In my journey, I have found that oftentimes the most intense battle I have encountered has been with myself.

Like many others, I have told people that I want to lose weight to be healthier, and to some extent I believed it. I have come to the point where I have hit a plateau and no amount of support from family and friends can get me over the hump. I think the reason is because I haven't come to grips with why I want to lose weight so badly.

After a couple of sleepless nights, I have finally come to the real reason that I want to get myself healthy, with a little help from NBC's "The Biggest Loser." One of the contestants, Jay, had been voted off the show, then brought back a few weeks later. Upon his return he seemed different and during this week's episode, the truth came out as to why he was wanting to lose the weight. Like Jay, I want my children to be proud of me. I don't have any children yet, but when I do, I want them to be proud of their dad. I want to be able to go out in the back yard and play catch, tag, or any other activity that a child could imagine. I don't want to be one of those fathers that can't go outside and play with his children.

My father is someone that I look up to. He is my hero, and one of my fondest memories of my father was when he and I were playing catch in the font yard. I was in Little League baseball and I thought I could be a pitcher. I was pitching and my dad was catching. I threw one and it hit his glove perfectly. He didn't even have to move the glove. I remember he called it a Nolan Ryan pitch and I was so proud of myself.

The way that I see it is that I am 26 years old and I weigh 300 pounds. Although I don't have high blood pressure ... yet, and I don't have diabetes like the rest of my family ... yet, I don't see my health improving much in my future unless I make that change. If I don't, then my children will never be able to have memories like the ones I have of my father.

I've said it before and I'll say it again ... losing weight is hard. The struggles that you encounter during the process are real and they need to be dealt with. When you put yourself in an unfamiliar position, or an uncomfortable position, you have to dig deep into your mind and find the motivation within yourself to overcome the fatigue, exhaustion and self doubt.

That's where I'm at, and I'm sure than many of you have been there before. I have my shovel and it's time to start digging. This is the point when I decide to keep pushing and get over this hurdle, or to pack my bags and go home. I don't know about any of you, but I'm sick of packing my bags. It's time to fight for my future and the memories that I will make with my children.

Michael Pommier
The Shrinking Man